Friday, August 07, 2009

Let's Go Ride a Bike

"It is by riding a bicycle that you learn the contours of a country best, since you have to sweat up the hills and coast down them. Thus you remember them as they actually are, while in a motor car only a high hill impresses you, and you have no such accurate remembrance of country you have driven through as you gain by riding a bicycle."
Ernest Hemingway

I recently sold my too large guitar amp and got Katie and I a couple of 1970's bikes off craigslist. I had no idea how much I would enjoy riding mine. My bike is a 1979 Raleigh Sprite, which is a road bike for people who are intimidated by road bikes. It's actually comfortable, the handlebars swoop up so you're not hunched over, it has narrow road tires and it's surprisingly fast. When I first started up our big hill, I thought I would never make it to the top. Now two weeks later I am trucking up the hill and loving it. My childhood bike was a single speed, and I remember being "that kid" that always got left behind in races on our street. So for most of my life riding a bike has been associated with pure misery. It's the above Hemingway quote and the now 10 gears to choose from that have liberated me from that old way of thinking about bikes. Turns out there is a whole sub-culture surrounding these "hybrid" retro bikes, the motto being "not sport...transport." Within this culture there is a general disdain for lycra wear, low handlebars, and grim expressions and a love for cargo bags, bullet headlights and taking in the local scenery. I'm loving it!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Summer News | Important Support Update




Dear friends and supporters,




Greetings from sunny New England!


I wanted to give you a brief update on what's going on with us this summer, as well as fill you in on our support status. If you normally skim these letters, please go ahead and scroll down to read our financial report.


Summer News


The amazing weather this summer (we haven't had to put in our window-unit air conditioner yet!) has provided our family with lots of time to spend together outside. Nadine, who just turned five on June 30th, is following in her mom's footsteps and has embraced her inner artist. She carries a notebook around with her outside and makes sketches of everything she sees. We can't believe it, but she will be starting kindergarten in the Fall. She is so ready, and so are we! Lucie (18 months) is taking her time learning how to walk, but she is definitely in full on "sponge" mode, curious about everything and wanting to do everything her big sister does. She is fascinated by shoes and could sit and try on mom and dad's shoes all day long if we let her.


In the summer, ministry slows down for us and takes a different form. We have been visiting family and taking time to reflect and be renewed in the gospel as a family. I went to the PCA General Assembly in Orlando in June, and then we spent a week in Memphis shuttling between our parents' homes and trying to visit friends and supporters as we could. And the last week of this month, I will be teaching 3rd year staff and interns at our RUF staff training in Atlanta. August 7th and 8th our student leaders will convene at our house to pray before the semester begins (we'll do a prayer walk around campus) and we'll also be planning our ministry for the Fall.


Important Support Update


As I'm sure you're aware, most ministries that are not internally self-supporting (like campus ministries) are really struggling financially right now. In my last update, I told you we were doing ok, but nearing a significant deficit in our account without a turn around in monthly giving.


This past month, while we saw an encouraging increase in the number of churches and individuals that have begun to partner with our ministry, our monthly giving has dropped to a level that is not sustainable for much longer.


I have set aside most of my planning and preparation work for this upcoming school year to focus on raising the money we need to continue ministering here at UConn.


We are now currently running a deficit of $10,000. You need to know that RUF has a policy that when a ministry account hits a $15,000 deficit, all programming expenses are frozen (that's the money we use to run our ministry).


Just so it's clear, if the deficit were to hit the $15K mark, my salary would not be frozen--we would still be able to put food on the table and pay our bills. But if the deficit were to grow beyond that mark, my salary would also be frozen. If that were to happen, the ministry wouldn't fold, but I would have to leave the field and focus entirely on raising support. Obviously that is not what we want to see happen, nor do we think it will reach that point.


One more important thing to keep in mind for a little perspective on all this is that major commitments from churches in Massachusetts, Connecticut, Alabama and Tennessee have not wavered and in fact, have increased in response to what God has done in our ministry over the past five years. We have recently received a three year commitment of $6,000 per year from a PCA church plant in Connecticut, and our home church in Coventry, CT still gives us over $30,000 per year in support, which has not changed. It is our monthly giving from individuals that has taken a huge hit, falling from an average of $5K per month to $2K per month. We are hoping year end giving this coming December will be a big help, but without some of that being given now, we won't make it that far. Some of you know that Katie works part time from home as a graphic designer, which is a big help, but her salary pays for our yearly plane tickets to visit family and nothing more.


At one level, one that mostly reflects my sin and pride, it is difficult to write a message like this. My pride says how can I, especially during this difficult financial season, ask people to give so sacrificially? But I have to remind myself that this ministry has never been our family's property or our "business"--God will do with it what He wills, and He is in the business of advancing His kingdom through those who go (that's us) and those who send (that's you!). To keep silent, to in pride bear this burden alone, would be robbing God's people of your part in His kingdom work here. And He is certainly at work, with many of our graduates moving to towns and cities throughout New England and truly beginning to infuse life into churches and communities from Connecticut to Vermont!


If nothing else, would you join with us in earnest prayer that God would provide? Strangely (or maybe not so strangely), we are not in a panic about all this. There have been times when Katie or I have been frustrated or discouraged, hurt or disappointed, but to be completely honest, this isn't one of those times. God has led us to this point and has confirmed again and again our calling to this work among college students in Connecticut. And our time here has made abundantly clear to us that our gifts in ministry are best suited to serving His church in places where the gospel is rarely if ever heard. This is definitely one of those places!


So we would ask you, if you feel your heart inclined toward us and our ministry here, please take a few moments and either


1) Call RUF at (678) 825-1070 (please mention either our name or RUF at UConn with your gift). If you have stock you would like to give, RUF can help you arrange that as well. Or...


2) Go online to http://www.ruf.org/donate and give what you can.


Right now the most pressing need is for one time gifts, but if it's possible to give even $10 a month, that will be an enormous help. We know many of you are struggling too, but if many people give a little, we will be ok. Please don't put this off if you are intending to give. Our family and the students at UConn thank you!


Hiding in Christ's riches which abound to us,

Joey for Katie, Nadine and Lucie

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Irony + David Foster Wallace

Full disclosure: I've never read anything by DFW. I have a few friends who are huge fans. The quote below is from this New Yorker article: http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2009/03/09/090309fa_fact_max?printable=true
"His goal had been to show readers how to live a fulfilled, meaningful life. Wallace’s desire [was] to write 'morally passionate, passionately moral fiction.' The default for Wallace would have been irony - the prevailing tone of his generation. But, as Wallace saw it, irony could critique but it couldn’t nourish or redeem."
The reason I post this is because I had a weird thing happen at summer conference this year that to me proves that irony is the "prevailing tone" of generation Y as well. Several of my students asked me if we could all get together and talk about the out of control irony and sarcasm that goes on among students in our group. A couple quotes that came out of our discussion: "We never really get to know each other because there are walls of irony separating us from each other"....and... "people coming into our group probably think 'these people love being together and know how to have fun but don't really know each other AT ALL.'" Of course it made my stomach turn because I feel like I have spoon fed sarcasm to our students, mostly because I'm scared to know them or be known by them.

We read 1 Thessalonians 5:11 and had a wonderful time of particular repentance among our students, especially our seniors, and I was left thinking: this should have happened a long time ago and I'm a moron for not picking up on it sooner. It felt nourishing and redemptive. I mentioned to one of our students: doesn't it make your soul come alive to imagine actually letting someone know you?

If only I had the courage to believe the gospel myself!

-JEP

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Best of 2008

Here's my belated top ten albums of 2008, for the two people who still read this blog (I know it's my own fault since I update it quarterly).  

10. April, by Sun Kil Moon
Mark Kozelek (also of Red House Painters) does it again.  Don't let the spring title mislead you, this is (like all of his stuff) autumnal music at its best.

9.  Lambchop, OH (ohio)
For anyone else, a remarkable accomplishment.  For Lambchop, another year, another album.  I could listen to Kurt Wagner sing grocery lists, but these lyrics are some of his best.  

8. Microcastle, by Deerhunter
Agoraphobia (the fear of wide open spaces) was just sitting there waiting to have a song written about it, and Bradford Cox got it right.  Lyrically unsettling, consistently pretty pop songs.

7. Re-Arrange Us, by Mates of State
The pop album of the year.  

6. Vampire Weekend, by Vampire Weekend
The hipster backlash is over, and what's left is a great Afro-pop album with awesome songs.

5. Vid og Vid, by Olof Arnalds
Probably my most listened to album of 2008.  Simple, beautiful acoustic songs (in Icelandic) reminiscent of Joanna Newsom. 

4. In Ear Park, by Department of Eagles
Best first half of any album in 2008.  "No One Does It Like You" is my song of the year.

3. Third, by Portishead
Every song is intriguing, original and unexpected, start to finish.  And it sounds like the band is done with their "album per half-decade" pace.

2. Med Sud I Eyrum Vid Spilum Endalaust, by Sigur Ros
Not sure why this didn't end up on everyone's year end list.  Truly remarkable music.

1. Fleet Foxes, by Fleet Foxes
No one came close this year to what they achieved here.  

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Everybody Hurts


This one is for all the recently arrived freshmen on campus at UConn.  I recently came across this tribute album to Automatic for the People (free to download).  The band Bodies of Water covers "Everybody Hurts" (scroll down to the bottom of the page to download the song).  Like me, you've probably heard that song so many times you're sick of it.  Well, this tribute gives it new life.  Here's Bodies of Water commenting on the song.  I think this relates perfectly to the need for community and what sharing each other's burdens really feels like:


 "Everybody hurts - Take comfort in your friends"

It could be that we're encouraged to take comfort in the fact that our friends are the most prevalent example of mankind living in pain (since they, like everybody else, hurt). Does being reminded of the unexceptional nature of our individual pain assuage it somehow? Maybe … at least if we appreciate the ubiquity of pain we can’t pity ourselves.

It could be that carousing with your friends (and knowing they’re available for carousing) is the most comforting thing about them.

In the end, I think "Don’t throw your hand" is the soundest advice in the song. As bad as you feel and as messed as you are, whatever you take comfort in or don't, just don't start throwing your hand around.

An interesting note: I thought this meant hurling your severed hand, while Meredith thought that it meant waving your hand around spastically, like a baby. Whatever. It's gross and weird.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Update on our hymn project


Isaac Wardell at Bear Creek Studios, Seattle


We're done!  The record has been mixed and will be released nationally on a to-be-announced major independent label in the coming months.  The title will most likely be "Come O Spirit!  Anthology of Hymns and Spiritual Songs, Vol. I."  Thank you to all who have supported this little-now-big project from the beginning!  Isaac will be bringing house shows to Indianapolis and St. Louis next month.    

Track list:

1.  Hard Times Come Again No More (v: David Bazan)
2.  Come O Spirit! (v: Aimee Wilson)
3.  He Never Said a Mumblin' Word (v: Sufjan Stevens and the Welcome Wagon)
4.  It Is Finished (v: Trent Dabbs)
5.  How Calm and Beautiful the Morn (v: Joseph Pensak)
6  Lord I Believe (v: Liz Janes)
7.  Be Still My Soul (v: Sarah Fullen)
8.  Jesus, Saviour, Pilot Me (v: Laura Gibson)
9.  Just a Closer Walk With Thee (v: Damien Jurado with Rosie Thomas)
10.  I Sought the Lord (v: Leigh Nash of Sixpence None the Richer)
11.  Kyrie Eleison (v: My Brightest Diamond)
12.  Mourner's Prayer (v: Denison Witmer)
13.  Open Thou Mine Eyes (v: Kate York)

Sunday, December 30, 2007

My Favorite Records of 2007



Because year end lists are so fun!  BTW if you've never read it, please do yourself a favor and check out Steve Turner's Imagine:  A Vision for Christians in the Arts.  And why not buy one of these records and try an exercise in discernment!  (www.ransomfellowship.org)

10) "Andorra" by Caribou
Gorgeous Beach Boys harmonies, Allman Bros. "Live at Fillmore" drums, with restrained electronics mixed in.  The first five or six songs are all great, the second half tends to drag.  

9) "At My Age" by Nick Lowe
I put off getting this on emusic for too long.  Lowe wrote "Cruel to Be Kind" to give you some context.  Great song choices--I'm still trying to figure out which ones are originals.  Self-assured, bright and very British music with minimal production and a great horn section throughout.  

8) "Cease to Begin" by Band of Horses
Great Neil Young inspired tunes following in the vein of the Shins.  They've almost surpassed their Sub-Pop mentors--these songs have better hooks and are less self-aware than anything off "Wincing the Night Away." 

7) "God Save the Clientele" by The Clientele
You won't like The Clientele the first time you hear them.  It took me a good while to "get it." 
As British as you can get, Alisdair is an incredible lyricist and an even better mood-setter. These songs are the brightest he's written and this is now my favorite Clientele record.

6) "Raising Sand" by Alison Krauss and Robert Plant
T Bone Burnett produced this release, which I got to hear two months early from my friend who works at Rounder (thanks T!).  Perfect song choices for their voices, and a Lanois-esque southern gothic vibe.  Hard to believe that Alison Krauss's voice could get any prettier--it really is next to Robert Plant's harmony.  

5) "The Historical Conquests of Josh Ritter" by Josh Ritter
I got into "The Animal Years" late in the game but jumped on this one right after it came out. 
These songs are much better than anything from his previous release.  This one feels like a classic album from the 70's.  

4) "Armchair Apocrypha" by Andrew Bird
Maybe my most listened to album of the year.  Plucking violins,  guitars with just the right amount of tasty reverb, and great jazz inspired songs.   
 
3) "Magic" by Bruce Springsteen
Just got it.  Some critic said this was almost better than "Nebraska" so I had to check it out.  It's not anywhere close to "Nebraska" but EVERY song is great.  So unpretentious, soo good.

2) "Neon Bible" by The Arcade Fire
I got to see them at the Judson church in Washington Square.  Even though the sound was horrible, it was one of the best shows I've ever seen.  This is a great follow-up to "Funeral." 

1) "In Rainbows" by Radiohead
Glimpses of OK Computer, lots of guitars, huge atmospheric bridges, and Thom Yorke's inimitable voice.  I paid $7.   

Friday, December 21, 2007

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Lucie Susanna Pensak

Out of darkness, God brings light! (Lucie=Light)



posted from iPhoneSlide.com

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

School's Out!


Our students have exams this week, so it's nice to have a break.  It's hard to believe that this coming Wednesday our little girl will finally be here!  Please pray for us.  I'll post pictures here when they become available.  For now this will have to do.  

Monday, November 19, 2007

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Derek Webb at UConn



We are thrilled at the opportunity to bring Derek Webb (with opening act Kelley McRae) to UConn this coming Tuesday! This show is the first in a series of Northeast dates for Derek, and the only show in CT, so if you're in the area come on out! Tickets are only $5 and because of a generous grant from the Day Foundation (started by the founder of Days Inn), 100% of the proceeds from the show will go directly to the Hartford Rescue mission. We have developed a great relationship with Gregg Woods, director of the mission, as we bring a group of students to volunteer once a month. The rescue mission serves meals six nights a week in their North Hartford neighborhood (in the poorest zip code in CT). So that's just one more reason to come.
See you Tuesday night!

For more about Derek and Kelley, visit their websites:
DerekWebb.com
KelleyMcRae.com

Saturday, August 11, 2007

People Get Ready


I'm looking forward to UConn starting back in a couple weeks. Please pray for me as I prepare for the juggernaut that is the Fall semester. Thankfully because I've been doing supply preaching at a local church that doesn't have a pastor, I have the first four messages I'll give at UConn in pocket. Hopefully that will relieve me to spend more time with students as well as my family during this hectic time. I will be going back to the gospel of John (I did John last Fall), starting where I left off in chapter six. This was completely unintentional, but it just so happens that John 6 contains the first of Jesus' seven "I Am" proclamations in this gospel. The theme this semester as I see it taking shape in my studies is "life"--what is it all about and how do we go about living it? Every time I sit down to write a sermon, I'm thankful I don't have to start at square one. There's plenty that's been said by a lot of people who are smarter than me about the Bible. No matter where I am in the Bible, I always find myself coming back to Calvin's Institutes: "Nearly all the wisdom we possess, that is to say, true and sound wisdom, consists of two parts: the knowledge of God and the knowledge of ourselves." And as Calvin said in another place in the Institutes, "In knowing God, we know ourselves." Please pray with me that students at UConn would come to know themselves, maybe even for the first time, as they come to know their God this semester.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Summertime in CT



Really enjoying the debut from St. Vincent (aka Annie Clark). Very weird, but very genius. Apparently live she produces all of the sounds on this record by herself. It's her, a guitar, a sampler and a kick drum. Hope I get to see that for myself.

And the new Ryan Adams (Easy Tiger) does not disappoint either. It's like he finally just got over himself and made the Neil Young-inspired record we all wanted him to make.

It's nice to have time to make my way through the stack of books I've collected over the past six months. A couple highlights:

Body Piercing Saved My Life: Inside the Phenomenon of Christian Rock

by Andrew Beaujon
is more a journey inside the phenomenon of American Christian subculture. Written by a guy from Spin, it is surprisingly balanced and insightful. Especially amusing are his reactions to insider language evangelicals take for granted, like why churches are "planted" and not just, um, "started."

Terrorist by John Updike
is the first Updike novel I've ever read. I filled his prescriptions when I worked part-time as a pharmacy tech in a posh Boston North Shore town during my seminary days. Always wanted to ask him about his poem, Seven Stanzas at Easter, but could never summon the courage. Came across a quote by him in Eugene Peterson's Eat This Book. Updike said Karl Barth's book The Word of God and the Word of Man gave him "a philosophy to live and labor by, and in that way changed my life." He sums up the Biblical world view as he drew it from Barth: "that truth is holy, and truth-telling a noble and useful profession; that the reality around us is created and worth celebrating; that men and women are radically imperfect and radically valuable." Yeah, I think it's safe to say we should read Barth again.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

RUF Summer Conference






Just got back. We logged just under 60 hours in the car (there and back). We had a great time but it's good to be home. Mike Campbell was the speaker for the week. He's an African American PCA pastor in Jackson, MS. His passion is racial reconciliation and that came through in his messages on "Dying to Sin, Living to Christ." One night we went bowling (that explains the matching tube socks and the blacklight friendly airbrush tshirts). Thanks to those who gave scholarships so students could go.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

The angel and the cup



After Jesus' terrible prayer at Gethsemane, an angel came to him and gave him strength, but did not remove the cup. --Wendell Berry, Jayber Crow

Some writers seem to have an inborn ability to capture a certain mood and sustain it until you become mesmerized. Berry is one of those. There is a certain silence that you can cut with a knife--a silence you can feel. And you feel it most when you are alone. That feeling is what Berry captures so well. It is a "Be-Still-and-Know-That-I-Am-God" kind of solitude, the kind that causes the pang behind the pang to well up inside you.

It's been three months since we held our precious Caroline. The pangs of sorrow are still very deep and for some reason they have risen to the surface this past week. Today I had to go approve the etching for her gravestone. I had no idea how difficult it would be. When I walked in the door, it felt like someone punched me in the stomach. There, laid across a drafting table on thin white carbon paper was my dear daughter's name with the date underneath: December 16th, 2006. Underneath will be a picture of a small lamb with the inscription, "I Am Jesus' Little Lamb -Isaiah 40:11." That verse says, "He will tend his flock like a shepherd; he will gather the lambs in his arms; and gently lead those that are with young."

Sometimes it feels like he didn't really drink the cup all the way down. That some has spilled out on us.


Saturday, March 03, 2007

King of Queens



This weekend we're hanging out with our good friends the Hickmans in Queens. Pat and Stephanie Hickman started an RUF ministry at St. John's here about the same time we started at UConn. It has been so good to connect with friends who are doing exactly what we are doing (in a very different setting). When they visit us it's for a break from the stress of city life and when we visit them it's for a break from feeling like we're in the middle of nowhere :). Today we took the kids to a really cool place, the CMA (Children's Museum of Art), where Nadine, Patton, Hogan and Libby got to paint and make clay sculptures. Then we walked about 15 blocks through Soho to Washington Square and ate at the Peanut Butter Co. Pat and I got the "Elvis" sandwich--peanut butter, banana and honey of course--but with a unique bonus that I'm sure Elvis would have loved: bacon. I think it goes without saying that it was good.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Frozen Ocean



Last weekend UConn RUF joined RUF groups from Trinity College, Yale and the University of New Haven for our second annual winter conference in Cape Cod. As cold as it was, we had an amazing time. I saw something I've never seen before--a frozen ocean--and it was nothing short of spectacular. It looked like Antarctica. Interesting fact: When the ocean freezes, it freezes in waves (it's not flat). Incredible. My friend Abe Cho from citylife church in Boston was our speaker for the weekend, and he did a great job talking about how the gospel is meant to "dig up our roots" and transform us. The Spirit was at work in the Word--there were many tears shed as students (and campus ministers) began to look honestly at the bad roots that so easily become entrenched in our hearts, turning even "good" works into weapons against God. One of the more insightful things Abe pointed out is that when you look at your heart (instead of your good or bad behavior), you are seeing the motivation behind why you are doing what you are doing. For example, take something most of us would say was good fruit in our lives, evidence that God is at work in our hearts--honesty. Now think about how often for you telling the truth is motivated by either guilt or fear. Guilt: "I'm going to tell the truth because I don't lie, I'm not a liar, I'm just not that kind of person." Fear: "I'm going to tell the truth because I'm scared of the consequences if I don't," OR "I want this person to think better of me than they already do--I'm not lying, I'm just witholding information." Notice the root motivation behind the outwardly "good" behavior is bad. There is no gospel root at all. So what does good fruit look like then? It is honesty rooted in the freedom the gospel brings. And what does the gospel have to say about freedom? We are set free from our bondage to other people's approval. We are set free from our bondage to our sin. So we tell the truth not because we are good people, not because we are afraid, but because we love the God who set us free and who calls us to tell the truth even as He tells us the truth about our hearts. All of this is from the book How People Change by Lane and Tripp (www.ccef.org), which I would highly recommend to you.

Monday, February 05, 2007

Arcade Fire in NYC




My friend C.J. (now the #1 coolest friend I have) emailed me last week to tell me he got us tickets to go see one of our favorite bands, the Arcade Fire, in NYC next weekend. Just how hot are these tickets? The band is playing five straight nights and all five nights sold out online in five minutes. Gothamist has a post about the show.

What is so great about this band? Well, one of the fruits of reading Seeing Through Cynicism is this quote:
In popular culture, modern knowledge has become "postmodern knowingness." Earnestness and seriousness are out. Frank Gannon wrote: "Something in the human mind says it's hopeless: The existence of God is something that human beings can never entirely discount, or entirely prove. Why torture yourself trying to answer a question like that? Get a hobby. Work out regularly. Eat low fat. Forget about what Yeats called "vague immensities"...Yet something deep in your soul says, Go ahead. Seek the ultimate answers. Maybe the human brain can actually "know" some transcendent divinity. Yeah. Good one. Don't hurt yourself, OK?
Keyes elsewhere quotes Robert Wright's The Moral Animal:

What is to be avoided at all costs in the postmodern age is earnestness, which betrays an embarrassing naivete...

University of Memphis head coach John Calipari sums it up well: "It's not cool to care." By postmodern standards, then, The Arcade Fire pulls up their pants to their armpits and LOVES linux. There is no irony. There is no winking "knowingness."

They sing songs about missing their parents.